I'm lost and weird without you here

sam brown, explodingdog.com

and from your lips she drew the hallelujah

.
she tries she wins and
i don't play but sometimes
i almost get lost figuring out where
my own worth comes
from Him not him and hot
tears and sweet coffee poured
into my cup and out
of the emptiness which
has a shape i know precisely
and chose repeatedly not to
fill my time and heart
wasted on pain not bread
where exactly is the tether
these days

HEROS

my graffiti will be with a can of spray paint. keep your eyes down and looking for it. can: heros. among other things.

Poem Store

I bought this poem from a kind boy on the Haight Street Fair sidewalk today for four well-spent dollars:


its blue but not sad
rather japanese named
after the battery and
assult charges the
ribbon doesnt ever
end but it does get
twisted and is soon
about to break
the bank of making
a living with antiquity


I don't know his name *(I do now, he is Zach Houston), just cloudsoftoday@yahoo.com which he wrote by hand at the bottom of the white label on which my poem was so quickly created. If I did know his name, I would become his fan and follow him, purchasing poems periodically. I tried and wanted so badly to take a picture of him and his little "shop," but my camera wasn't working properly. He had a small typewriter and a stool and on the case for his typewriter he had a sign: "the Poem Store." He was just setting up as I walked by, and said he would make a poem for me about whatever I wanted, I set the topic and the price. Being that I am in love with Courier and having such an affinity for typewriters, I asked for a poem about his typewriter. Minutes later I had this precious little paper filled with charming words in my sweet Courier by a boy with a beard and a typewriter.

I think it is my favorite purchase in a very long time; it makes me delightfully happy, and helps to alleviate the pain of my irresponsible sunburn. Thank you Sir.

listen to this

Of COURSE I have suggestions! I was asked by Jen if to only buy three CD's this month, what should she buy, this was my reply:
(granted, they are tailored to her, but truth is still truth)


1. Rilo Kiley: Under the Blacklight
2. Death Cab for Cutie: Narrow Stairs
3. Delta Spirit: Ode to Sunshine

Also excellent is:
Last years' Shins album, Wincing the Night Away, if you don't already have it, I would call that number 4 to buy --if you like the Shins.
Stars: Heart --an oldie but a greatie
The Cave Singers: Invitation Songs
The Snake The Cross the Crown: Cotton Teeth
Ray Lamontagne: Till the Sun Turns Black
The Magnetic Fields: I
Loney Dear: Loney, Noir
And The Weepies dropped a new album but I haven't bought it yet, I've only heard one song, but I love that and am SURE the album will be excellent.
And of course, Vampire Weekends self-titled full-length, man it is good and dancey.

so fresh and so clean clean

There is a new scent of clean to me. Well, two. With part of my tax refund, I treated myself to a helping of products from The Laundress, which I have been longing after for over a year. Gwen and Lindsey are women after my own heart who have created the most beautiful laundry products, specially formulated to care for your garments, get things clean, and look beautiful all together. I bought their Whites Detergent, their Signature Detergent, their Wool & Cashmere Shampoo, Stain Solution, a Wash and Stain Bar, and a small bottle of Crease Release.
Tonight I washed my whites, and they are so clean and smell so fresh, a new scent of fresh clean since I usually use 100% fragrance free detergents.
I also handwashed my cashmere; my scarves/pashminas, (man I love them) and my favorite argyle sweater. The cashmere shampoo is cedar scented, for obvious reasons, and I can't tell if its the wet cashmere, or the wet cashmere with cedar scent to it, but it smells like wet dog, but like clean wet dog. Like Rosie used to smell after she had been bathed, or while she was being bathed. I'm so excited for them to be cleaned. I watched The Laundress gals' video on how to best handwash your cashmere, and felt like such a pro.
I also made carrot soup tonight, it was SUCH a productive evening.
I am so in love with my new detergents, and with The Laundress in general even MORE now.
HOORAY for CLEAN!!